Prayers

They can work miracles.
I wish there was one left for my Grandma Vicki, but it's selfishness talking.
Two years ago, she was taken to the hospital. She had a stroke. She gradually got use back of her left arm and leg.
Two weeks ago, her left arm was swelling, and they took her to the hospital. She has cancer.
Two days ago, I found out that she was moved from ICU, but was on a respirator and hooked up to machines.
Two hours ago, I found out she is in Stage 4. They gave us (guess how many) 2 weeks.

Within 12 seconds of the chemo starting, the nurses were called in. Radiation and now chemo are out of the question, her body isn't strong enough. Her body will start shutting down soon, they say.

Cancer. A six letter word. A horrible, confusing thing.
A terrible way to end a happy, full life.
I'm thankful that we've had her as long as we have.
And that she knows Jesus, 'cause my heart rejoices in that. That I will see her again.

I started to pray for God to heal her body. To take away the cancer that's taking it over, give us and her a miracle, and give us more time with her.
But then it hit me, what if that's not God's will?
I wish it was, that a miracle could/would/will happen.
But if not, then my prayers are this: That we have enough time to say goodbye. That everyone gets to tell her they love her, and that they will see her again one day. That she isn't in severe pain here in the end.

God. Abba. Father, please.
If You must have her now, if You must gather up Your child, then please do so, with as little pain as possible to her. Lord, I know it's selfish, but please give everyone time to say goodbye to her. To sit with her, tell her we love her, and hug her as much as possible. If she's going to be absent from this body, and present with you soon (in Paradise, in HEAVEN), like we know Your word says, and Your word is truth, then plese let her leave it peacefully. Gently.
Whatever Your will is, let it be done. Take this cup from her if You will, but if not, either way, let Your will be done. Hold her in Your hand, Lord. Hold us all close now, please, I pray. May Your grace, love, and peace pour down on everyone.
In Your precious Son's name,
Amen.

Thankful For Much

Giving thanks isn't just for Thanksgiving.
Giving thanks isn't just for when things are going bad.

We should give thanks to God all the time, not just once a year.
We should to give thanks to God in the good times and the bad.

"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Chrsit Jesus." - 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
"These trials have come so that your faith- of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire -may result in praise, glory, and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed." - 1 Peter 1:7

I'm supposed to always be thankful.

I hurt my toe Friday. I feel like a baby for complaining, because I know there are things that hurt more. I ripped the nail off down to the cuticle, and jammed it really bad. I had to take the nail off yesterday. Ouch.
The part that really upset me was that it happened Friday, at our big back to school lock-in. I was upset that I couldn't play some of the games. 2 people accidently hit it, and it just kept hurting more and more. I had to drive 4 hours again roundtrip Saturday.It throbbed and ached TERRIBLY the whole way home. Sunday, I had to take it off myself, because I didn't trust anyone else to even touch it, and it was very painful.

I am still supposed to be thankful. Maybe there was a reason why I wasn't supposed to play. Maybe there's a reason why that happened when it did. God knows those things. I rest in that.

So, here's what I'm thankful for this Monday:

• my other nine toes.
• sweet mommas who know just how to bandage your toe so it doesn't cause uneccesary pain.
• healthy babies
• rain!!
• swimming pools
• pizza rolls
• bb guns
• back porches
• new laptops
• SKYPE
• love letters
• bibles and new journals
• band-aids and waterproof tape
• the wonderful feeling of getting my hair didddd.
• footrubs
• phone cameras
• instagram
• plastic tubs to pack college stuff in
• willing hands to help pack
• duct tape
• countdowns (11 days till move-in!)
• grandparents coming to town
• Time Alone with God
• advil and amoxicillian
• Mommy's love
• great church family
• awesome true friends
• wonderful "extended" family
• God's sweet grace, forgiveness, and the love of Jesus to pay the price of my sins

I'm thankful for much.

Heart = Happy

I love you, Lord, and I lift my voice, to worship You. Oh, my soul, rejoice! Take joy, my King, in what You hear. May it be a sweet, sweet sound in Your ear.

"Then my soul will rejoice in the Lord, and delight in His salvation." -Psalms 35:9


"But I trust in Your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in Your salvation." -Psalms 13:5

"The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song." -Psalms 28:7

My mouth is rejoicing. Humming, singing, praying!
My hands are working, sharing about Him in as many ways as I can.
My eyes are joyful. Showing people how happy I am, and letting it show in my face.
My mind is learning. Storing up His word, learning, and allowing Him to show me things I hadn't seen before.
My heart is happy. Everything is as He would have it be, and His blessings pour down.

No Such Thing.

A few weeks ago, I read a verse that I loved. To my dismay, I lost the bookmark holding the page.
Talk about heart-breaking..
Until today.
I was reading a post on Facebook from a sweet sweet lady I know, and I accidently clicked her name and it took me to her wall. Coincedence? No such thing.
I read something she posted, a verse from Psalms 63.
After logging off the computer...
"Well, aren't you gonna do your bible study?"
"Yes. Where do you want me today?"
"I've already showed you."
"Psalms 63?"
"..."
Okie dokie.
I open up my tiny backpack bible, and within a few minutes, I see why I'm there.
Psalms 63:7-8. The verse I had been looking for!!!
"Because You are my help, I sing in the shadow of Your wings. I cling to You; Your right hand upholds me."
Coincedence? No such thing.
God working in mysterious, yet perfect ways? Yes.
Thank you, Lord.

These are the words I would say...

"Be strong in the Lord,
never give up hope.
You're gonna do great things,
I already know.
God's got His hand on you,
so don't live life in fear,
forgive and forget,
but don't forget why you're here.
Take your time,
and pray.
These are the words I would say,
from one simple life to another,
I would say,
come find peace in the Father."

If I could talk to every struggling, hurting person,
everyone who wants to give up,
everyone who doesn't have confidence,
everyone who doesn't think they have the strength,
to do God's will, or to get through their struggles,
These are the words I would say.

Love love love!!

 I love....

Trains... Railroad tracks, and signs, right by my house make for good picture places. :)

Sunrises... Beautiful.

Orientation. IT WAS AWESOME!

My new lappy! Yayyayyyay!! :)

And I love my Lord. My heart sings out to Him, my mind learns, and studies His word, so that I can hide it in my heart, and my soul yearns, prays and reaches towards Him daily. Hourly. Minutely.

Lazy Summer Days

 Been having an amazing summer, full of fun, and growth, and love. Lots of busy days, but I've had my fair share of "lazy days" too.

Momma has the week off. It's been fun to hang out with her, especially before I go off to school. Heart is joyful. :))

Orientation was a BLAST! I met some cool people, fell in LOVE with the campus all over again (almost broke my heart to leave it) and got my classes all in a row!

• NO MATH CLASS THIS SEMESTER! 
• English 112 = (sophomore level english! No freshman level for this girl!)
• KINE ??? = BEGINNERS SWIMMING... Yeah, I get to swim for credit. 
• PSY 101 = Psychology. You betcha I'm excited for this one.
• Last and least (favorite) CHEM 105 = This. Class. Is. Gonna. Stink!

NO CLASSES ON FRIDAYS! Makes my heart happy! :]


These lazy summer days have been amazing. :) Loving every moment. Truly. And LOOKING FORWARD to moving to Stephenville to TARLETON in 24 DAYS. It's finally almost here.
Thank You, Lord for all the blessings.

I'm ready.