I'll Carry You in My Heart Forever

I only carried you in my tummy for a little while, but I'll carry you in my heart forever. And ever and ever, peanut.
I love you baby. Sweet dreams. Xoxoxo

I just..

Wish you were here, Peanut. :( I want you. I love you, baby. Always. Always. Always. Sweet dreams my little lovie.

Seventy Times Seven.

For the things that were said, for the things that were done, forgive.
God was laying that on my heart.
But Lord, you know the hurt -
Forgive.
But Lord, it's not fair -
Forgive.
But Lord, I didn't -
Forgive.

How many times do I have to forgive, God. It feels like I'm always forgiving. Why should I? Why bother? How many times should I forgive?

Just as I forgave you of your sins, so you should forgive others of theirs.
Seventy times seven.

Keep forgiving them. Always forgive. Don't hold the ugliness, the pain, the grudge in your heart.

Seventy times seven.
So sweet, so humbling.

I'm Not Who I Used To Be

Not. Who. I. Used. To. Be.
Something. Different.
Something. New.
NOT. WHO. I USED. TO. BE.
I read a book where the character said this. I don't remember the title but it's by Julia Quinn. I has stuck with me since the moment I read it. I repeat it over and over sometimes, and I thought I was losing it until...
Three days later, in the car on the way home from school, I heard this song:
Big Daddy Weave - Redeemed
"All my life I have been called unworthy, named by the voice of my shame and regret. But when I hear You whisper, "Child lift up your head", I remember, oh God, You're not done with me yet... I am redeemed, You set me free. So I'll shake off these heavy chains, and wipe every stain, yeah, I'm not who I used to be. Oh, God, I'm not who I used to be. Jesus, I'm not who I used to be. 'Cause I am redeemed.Thank God, redeemed."
Oh it shook me. Down to my core. But He didn't stop there. Oh no.
Another three days later, I came across this picture. I knew. It was no coincidence. Is anything really coincidence? I don't really think so. God wanted me to get this message. I'm not who I used to be. I know how much I've changed since I was redeemed by His grace. I know how much I've changed in the last year. In the last 6 months.
Oh, God, I'm not who I used to be. I am redeemed. You set me free... Thank you, Lord. Thank you for using my number. Thank you for showing me in three different ways. Thank you for reminding me. Again. Thank you for your most precious gift. Jesus.
I am redeemed.
I'm not who I used to be...